Oh but on my lips is a secret I can’t let slip. Forbidden love. After so long you’ve probably forgotten. Yet I can’t forget or let slip, the secret on my lips
Oh but on my lips is a secret I can’t let slip. Forbidden love. After so long you’ve probably forgotten. Yet I can’t forget or let slip, the secret on my lips
How must we sing thy praises
When in the midst of the pit
The bottom is endless
How shall we come up for air?
Lord I don’t feel enough to care
Nor care enough to feel
My heart is nowhere to be found
All I know is what my mind is telling
How shall we find you when ourselves we cannot find?
Unless you pull me from this darkness, this pit will be home
Death will be the only taste on my lips
I have memories of your sweet honey pouring over
Yet my memories I cannot trust
In enemy territory I slumber
My eyes are blind and my ears deaf as stone
Smite me where I sit or breathe
Your sweet breath back into my lungs
May I never taste this despair again
I have no compass nor map
Only a broken heart to cry out with.
Tis all I can muster
May it suffice
Lord I am empty of all but this:
A memory of your kiss
Fading like a shadow or flower in the midst of desert
Hasten to me while there are beats in this heart
While there is hope enough to cry out
May it be enough
May it be enough
May it be enough
Come sweet Jesus, come
Come so the dark will flee
Call me to the flock
Give strength to these legs to return
Til then I’m lost in thought
Disconnected from all and every thing
Spinning spiraling fading yet hoping
In the quiet I wait and listen
The 6 a.m. Drizzle light and rhythmic
I am awake
I wonder what today will bring
And Why the stillness of this hour doesn’t stay
The monsters lay in beds asleep
But For now we are safe
My neighbors haven’t awoken
To their sad miserable existence
They spend their days in
Drunken stupor
Smoking cigs they can’t afford
Cussing at children they don’t deserve
They pity themselves
Blood in their teeth
Violent words on their lips
Worse than the exhaust of
Semis
CFCs AND DDTs
The murderers of peace
Anxious
Thoughts jumbled, mixed up
Spinning in a circle
Heart beating out of my chest
So anxious
Try to stand up
Fall down
Twisting slipping
What is sleeping?
Anxious
Stomach knots
Crazy stop
So I can stop
Worried flurry
Fretting
Stacked
List piled
Things to do
Undo
Wash
Buy
Sell
Repair
Possess
Be
Out of my mind
Anxious
Talk talk or go for a walk
Walk maybe run
Sip a little too much
From the bottle
Not anxious
Wake up
Headache
Thoughts jumbled, mixed up
Spinning in a circle
Heart beating out of my chest
Still anxious
Stop, crazy
Anxious
One day when I does not exist
Only we
Two, but one
Love of the Father
The glue that holds us
Keeps us as we wait
I whisper sweetly
(Forgetting to breathe)
All the lovely things
(Though not as lovely as you)
Exhale slow
Breathe in deeply
Your smell, intoxicating
Yes, one day
(One day awakened by love)
I’ll gently lift your veil
Softly kiss your lips, mine
Ours
You and I, we
Home until death sweetly takes
To eternity’s embrace
